Turning Point 🎡

I have known you in the most unexpected way, With just your words, chuckles and voice are at play, Where messages are conveyed on terminals away And yes, I guess, that's okay anyway

Words turned into phrases; phrases into sentences

Work related business into personal messages

Comfortably we listened and understood each other's speeches

Then we click, we jive because of personal experiences

Until comes the day it permits us to meet

It was Friday night, the stars and the moon greets

I opened the door, waved hello as you smile and your eyes lit

With butterflies on the stomach, faster and faster this heart beats

Along the road, the music’s loud, the destination I wonder

How far we’ll go; meters, kilometers, it doesn’t matter

Thus, no awkward silence as if it’s not our first encounter

Yet, what to do and where to eat, that I can’t decide and answer

Finally, reached a place by the bay, overlooking the space

Where we dine, eat and communicate face to face

Past, present, future; anything under the sun we trace

It’s good to have someone to talk to in this life’s race

From that moment, I knew I am letting you in

Thus, allow you to see my world, deep and within

Introduced you to friends and thought someday to kins

Feels great to remember where it all begin

But beginnings aren’t usually beautiful like this

You knew what I mean and it’s a bliss

Won’t go into details, ‘cause it’s something we must not reminisce

Just like a case that should be dismissed

Hence, the walls I’ve built are higher now

To thy standards and principles you must bow

It seems no one I could enter and allow

Even if it’s you who’ve made me feel wow

Yet chances are given to those who asks for it

Still let you discover what lies beneath

Day by day, your eagerness commit

With the efforts and determination of no retreat

Days turned into weeks, weeks into months

Amazed you’ve managed to listen to all my rants

Even if you knew my feels and thy harsh words so blunt

And so your hope and wish I couldn’t grant

You continuously pursue it even if you’re hurting

Your passion seems undying, your efforts are never ending

You keep going and going because that’s your thing

The fire in you keeps burning and still igniting

Yet I believe that there’s nothing at all

I am still guarded by these walls that stand still and tall

I am certain it would not break and fall

As if there’s an installed manual and protocol

However, just when one knows where his headed to

Things change, people change, feelings and situations too

The unexpected change turned the world upside down for us two

And I just don’t know if I’ll make it through

The more I resist, the more it gets in

The words I utter, in actions can’t be seen

The truth is, there’s something, always has been

Failed to admit it, sorry I didn’t mean

As I realized I’m into you, your love eventually fades

What seems endless nears to an endgame played

This wheel of fate and reality can’t managed to evade

Oh tell me, how to accept this kind of trade

You fell out of love when my love for you has more to offer

But your mind and heart’s tired while mine can’t seem to recover

The moment you finally stopped and said it’s over

‘Twas a heartbreaking moment I wish not to remember

Hard to imagine that daily routines turned into cold treatments

I hate how I realized things this late and made myself silent

For too long, I was holding back and kept choosing pavements

Never expected it will come and reach this moment

There’s this time you left me hanging and held no clue

It was then I really felt so alone and blue

To the extent I thought there’s someone and something new

But I believed you and knew what’s true

Sorry for this thinking, judgments’ clouded, it’s just so hurting

Sorry for those affected ones, didn’t mean to drag them in this hearing

I hope you could forgive me, one day upon meeting

Without grudges, now, I set you free in leaving

Losing a lover and a best friend all at once; it’s the hardest part of it

In times of joy, I’d like to share all to you but there’s a limit

In grief and sadness, missed my comfort zone, your words, advices, life’s assurances and all in it

Will look you from afar, see you at distance, this will seems a halfway meet

Indeed, there are lots of things I haven’t consider and undertake

Blamed myself for all those I did not make

Apologies for the unreciprocated love; my bad and my mistake

True enough, I had regret the chances that I did not take

With dozens of what ifs and things that I’ll miss

Wherein unclear path’s ahead and no basis

I knew I just have to accept what it is

And yes, really want these thoughts and feelings to be released

This is not how I felt from the start

But I guess it’s a change of heart

Loving you is like a form of art

That I’ll never forget even we’re now apart

Because beautiful memories are in it too; the ones to be cherished upon

A heartfelt gratitude on all the things you have done

You made every single events and moments filled with fun

Amidst the painful moments, it’s the colorful ones I’d like to recall in the long run

Right now, maybe my life’s still a mess, but don’t you worry

I know this will just be temporary

I have now come to accept reality

Thus, for my mind’s clarity and heart’s serenity

Endings are usually the hardest, in fact, I don’t know how to end this

There are lot of words and feels I don’t want to dismiss

Afraid that there are important thoughts and ideas that I’ll miss

But hey, I just want to sleep for the next tomorrows that I’ll seize

The phases, the process; this journey, it’s really a lesson learned

With all the decisions we risk in this life we governed

I hope we continue to grasp, comprehend and discern

What really matters and what we must concern.